deeper and deeper still.

I am thankful He doesn’t leave us where we are. I would’ve been long gone a decade ago. I am thankful that when I said “yes” to Him 3 years ago, He took me seriously. And as much as growing pains hurt. As much as I want to quit some days. As much rewiring that has to take place, I am so incredibly thankful that He sees me fit to do His work. He calls me by name to approach His throne and believe me, I do it humbly. I do it reverently. He calls me deeper still.

When I was eight years old, I accepted Him as Savior. When I gave birth eight years ago to my first son, I accepted Him as the Great Provider for my life. And as I look back on the last two years, I am overcome with a resounding sense of grace, knowing He has been shaping me to step into something far beyond what I could ever dream. Bigger than my mind can wrap around. Shedding skin; oh there is still much further to go. Transforming me into the image of Him; I could never compare. A new life. A new identity.

I have spent a lifetime, well 33 years, focused on the here and now. My earthly treasures. And I have said it before (God is reinviting me to learn this again), this world, it is not my home. While cute clothes, fit bodies, fun vacations, nice cars and comfortable houses are not sinful things… they are not the end goal. They are not even today’s goal. And even on their best days, these things can never make us whole. They make us momentarily happy while God is whispering things of Eternal Glory.

God has beckoned my heart to provide for the orphans and widows. Like Daniel, to stand with a humble fearlessness. To serve Him and others faithfully. Speak truth gracefully. Offer love always. And to go and make disciples.  

He calls me deeper still....