as i was mowing our front pasture (yes you read that correctly), i began to think about all of the things i needed to get in order before my oldest starts first grade on wednesday. and then i thought, "corbin starts first grade on wednesday!" and then i began to cry. on the mower. in our front pasture. a ridiculous, weeping mess of a mother.
you see, just the day before corbin had said that he was going to miss rhys while he was in school. which was sweet. but when i start to think about this summer and how quickly it went by, i felt sad that now summer was all we would have. because now corbin would be in school all day, every day. it doesnt just change our schedule, it changes our relationships with one another. rhys would no longer have brother to wrestle with and jump with on the trampoline during the day. he could no longer steal his snack. (which im sure corbin wont mind a bit about that!) and ride his bike along side. corbin wont get to show rhys a cool, new trick. because after corbin gets home from school, we will have dinner, then homework, possibly some sport or church activity, and then maybe, just maybe one hour before bed.
life, slow down.
i need more time.
time to hold them. time to have them all to myself. to chase bubbles and reads stories. to play hide and seek and have picnics.
how fast the past six years have gone. i blinked. and here i am.
and in just three more, rhys will be starting school. i just... cant.
life, slow down.
i need more time.
