moments.

there are these moments...
when david is messaging me about how he has set everything up for our move back to texas.
when corbin has decided to play in his room instead of watch cartoons or play a video game.
when rhys is sleeping soundly on my chest and i get that yummy smell of baby.

and david may not have a job lined up yet.
and i may go upstairs to find that corbin has made a HUGE mess of the room that was tidy.
and rhys may start screaming.

but its those moments. those tiny 5 minute moments that carry me over through the next ones. they remind me that i was, am, and will always be blessed.

i serve a God that is good to me and my family. all of the time.

and then there were four...

fifteen days ago i gave birth to my second little baby. i have been meaning to blog about this for fourteen days. tis' the life with a newborn. my days have been full with laundry, nursing, and very long moments of staring at the beautiful life that God allowed my husband and i to create.

rhys oliver young. 9 lbs 4 oz. 21.5 inches long.

he looks exactly like corbin did as a baby. only bigger. but his temperament is completely different. corbin was pretty much the perfect baby, which God knew i needed at the time. rhys is noisy and needs his diaper changed about every half hour. he wants to eat as often as possible. he will not sleep flat on his back so for now we have him in his car seat. and every once in awhile he demands to be held at night. he will settle for nothing less.

i love this little boy. and i consider myself blessed to have two of them now. i am excited to watch my boys play together and to see how different (or alike) they become. i am sure they will both give me a run for my money but for now i will enjoy tiny hands and feet.

"You give us Your best for what we thought was better and You are to be praised"

five years ago, i was the girl who swore she wouldnt have kids. ever! here i am pregnant with my second. today, however, is my first baby's 4th birthday. my how time flies. i have so many things to be grateful for but that little man in my life... i cant believe i ever thought he was going to be a burden. i am thankful to Jesus for giving me His best in place of what i thought was better. how foolish we are in thinking we know what we need. or even want. and corbin will forever be my living proof of that. God saved me the day i became pregnant. and although at the time i thought my life was over, i know now that it was a life wasted on abuse and self-deprication that ultimately i was pulled out of by such small hands and feet. he is one of the greatest joys of my life. happy birthday my precious & ornery little boy. you have taught me patience. you have taught me to love in a way i never thought possible. you have made my life rich.