sufficient.

so when did being needy get such a negative conotation to it? man, i used to be soooo needy. mainly with boys. which, of course, is bad. (id tell any teenage girl that very thing) but learning to be dependant, strong, 'i can do anything on my own'.... well, somewhere it began to seap over into my spiritual life. i was so determined to prove that i could do anything, be anything, solve any problem without anyones help. and sadly, that included Jesus.

the funny thing, though, about that Jesus is WE NEED HIM. that was the plan. the main point. the whole, God coming to earth in human form, walking among sinners while remaining perfect, now im gonna go sacrifice myself and die the worst possible death and not only die but come back to life bit and do all of this because i love you? yeah, that was because we needed Him. there needed to be a way for us to spend eternity with Him. and i, on my own, in my horrific screwed up selfish life, can do nothing good apart from Him. im not quite sure when i will learn this lesson. when i will comprehend the magnitude of His Grace and the beauty of His Unending Love for me...

i need Him. to take over and run this life of mine. because truth be told, im not doing such a great job. im tired. and stressed out. i yell at my kids and i roll my eyes ALL of the time at my husband. my thoughts are murderous and i am jealous of what other people have.

and the funny thing about that Jesus... HE IS SUFFICIENT.
sufficient
adj. [suh-fish-uh nt] : adequate; enough

He is enough. and it NEVER matters if i am or not. He is.


"Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
sweetest name i know
fills my every longing
keeps me singing as i go"